):


I smell fear within me.
Exam's approaching and...tons of notes are left un-read, un-studied, un-seen...

Im freakingly worry bout my future now )':
Life can never be wonderful forever.

This is not what i want.
Listen to my prayers please.


Replies to tags:

Rene- I love you gurl (:

Aud- Thanks load babe, though i donno what blessing ya giving me.hahahha!Ask Aaron bring me to NDP leh.

Jean- I know you so wanna me to be your partner right!Dont shy babe la, im there for you hottie.HAHA.

Gene- Put me aeroplane still dare tag my board huh huh huh. I charge you 1hr $1500 for entertainment, no drinking and hanky-panky included ahs.

Brandon- Yes! i've venture a new business for myself, must support me eh.HAHAHHAA.

Chin-Aww..sorry that i lied bout the East Coast thingy, im supporting you mentally alright!hahaha. Auntie Candy is kind right (: And Chin, lets be studying partner!((:

Hui Yuan- Stop laming with your name can -_- and you guys are the one who make the pics FUNNY!hohoho

K-Boxing with 4 Kiddy-Butts (:

Hanged out with 4 little kiddo.
Hui Yuan gave us treats at his workplace, yummm p:
Jean, you missed out the FUN & GOODIES!!hohohoho!
Fwahahaha.
we are soooo full of crap.

Hui Yuan and gene took me to explore Orchard Tower, WOAH...big boobs everywhere.
heh heh heh
And i think im turning into a male sooner or later la, should go for transexual op soon eh.
I even starred at them like some lecherous on the street can!
See, this is the aftermath if you hang out with guys too oftently -_-'''
But its funn (:
HAHAHHAHAHA.


Sky and Chin joined us at K-Box, wows..we even sing the "12 days of Christmas" song can.
Tonned at Orchard after sing-sang-sung-song session.
Crap, cam whore, act along Orchard Road.
HoHoHo.
We nearly fell asleep at 24/7 Mac.
Sipping their keep-them awak coffee and me savoring 100%-pure-children-packet Apple Juice.
I feel like an Auntie hanging out with boyboy for an instant.
hahhahhaha.

And i witnessed an accident on the way home, gosh, that man instantly flew off from the bike.
*shivers*



See hw Sky sing passionately (:
Yuan & Gene -___-


AHHH.


Chin said i look like ah-ma.
Im Auntie to you guys alr wad, neh neh.


Sky & Chin soo full of passion


Gene (:
His jacket left 2 buttons only, hohohoh.


Yuan-Gene-Candy


As they tried to make fun of Chin while he peepee.


Obscenity act along Orchard Road, Candy's fav.
AHAHHAHAHA.




3 kiddo walking dwn the street


BLEHS.

BYE-BYE.

Lets strive for a better future together!
Say hello to exam(:
I Love my Friends <3
Miss my lovers loads.

Just Another Emo Entry
-Sorry, Candy's been emo-ing, perhaps its due to her menses eh. There's sure to have ups and dwns in life right?

Suddenly, im overwhelmed with emotions.
It feels like the world has torn apart, falling.

Life seems so meaningless for an instant.
I started to worry about my future.
What can i do after graduating from poly?
What can i do when i have my feet stepped into the society, the reality?
With the Low, lousy GPA grade, there's no way i can enter into a local University.

What can i do?

I don't wanna have myself stucked in a suffocating office room like a trapped animal.

I wish there's a shoulder to lean on.
Hands that could lead me to my future.
Hugs that ambrace me with hope and confidence.

Love.
Its another magical thing.
It comes and go without you noticing it.
It's a wonderful thing yet you might get hurt.

Watching the Couples, enviousness evolved.
Listen to friend's sorrows cause fear in me for love.

Break-up.
Its such a cruel thing.
Unhappiness set in & cause both parties left with tears.

We fear for such thing yet we yearn to be loved and love.
Humans simply love torturing themselves.
Instead of being upset alone why make it 2?
But, at times, love grow stronger and everlasting.
You never know.

Jia You my friend (:

Things just aint gg on well.
There's no motivations in us.
Shall we put a full-stop to it?
or
Just listen to our hearts?
I feel like, im hanging in the middle of nowhere.

IS tomorrow.

Its Make-up lesson for Business Etiquette.
Sian.
I don't even have a proper make-up set la, not even foundation ogays.
Kao eh.
Nvm.
I'll go for natural beauty then.
Muahahahhahahas.

IF i failed to borrow make-up kit from Saudi...
Ppl, you'll see me with Flour on my face tmr.
Tee-hee-hee-hee.

BoardGame with TB09 ppl rocks man.
Skipped lecture though : X
Zaza & bunch of crappies(:

I hearted TB09 <3


After much consideration, i've decided.
I don't wanna get myself hurt again.
All i need is my friends.
Perhaps..

Egg Mayo + Mayo Ham Sandwich


Ingredients:

1) 2 eggs
2)6 slice of wholemeal bread
3)2 piece of honey-baked ham (base on own preference)
4) Lettuce (amt base on own preference)
5)Mayo (1 bottle)

Make 3 sandwich.



-Cook egg in boiling water for about 20-30mins+(Be careful not to break e egg when attempt to put in the piping hot water!)
-Soak hard boiled egg ice water, enable easier peeling process


-Cut egg into tiny cubes


-Mix egg with mayo (preferably 2 tablespoon), margarine and spices.
-Spread mixture onto toasted bread along with lettuce.


-Toast Ham and Wholemeal Bread till satisfied, not burnt.
-Spread ham and lettuce on bread, may spread some margarine to enhance the taste.


-Cut sandwich into half, place tooth-pick to secure.


Wah-la-la!
Its done!
Healthy hearty lunch ((:


P/S: Everything is fine now (: Go with the flow everybuddy : ) Sorry for the rantings and thanks for the listening ears and watching eyes(is there such description??)

Candy is still in a dilemma somehow.

Oh, so..am ito be BLAMED for lending YK's formal wear when she called at the 11th hour and i lectured her? oh, btw, i read it frm YK's blog (:
Am i always to be blame when things go wrong when is like i have to vex over the freaking PROJS and no one was there to be my judges and i have to freakingly think bout others?


FINE.

Carry on to take me for granted everyone.
Carry on to be unable to see things clearly.
Carry on to be blind and not justify.
Carry on to do last min work.
Carry on to cast friends aside and look for them when you needed to.

Liquid Kitchen



-Took this with Ching's "MIMI" phone -__-


-Triangular-squinted-eye


-Bee's pinky hair


-See, we react fast.


-Chingy!


-Chen Min (:


-Sexy Slut Babe


-Retarded Jason


-Ching+Jess= retarded cousin.HAHAHHA




-We tonned at Mac while waiting for shir.




-Im dead beateb, Shir, Where are you??!



-Home Sweet Home at 4AM.

Perhaps.


Perhaps its over.
Perhaps its not.

Perhaps its love.
Perhaps its not.

Perhaps i do love.
Perhaps i dont.

Perhaps you do love.
Perhaps you dont at all.

Perhaps im the one for you.
Perhaps im not.

Perhaps you dont understand love.
Perhaps you do.

Perhaps im not the one who can make you understand love.
Perhaps i am.

Perhaps all you want is not my heart.
Perhaps all you want is my heart.

If a man do love a woman, he'll do all means to take a look at her if they can only meet once/week.
If the woman truly love that man, she'll not feel hanging in the mid air & realised the fact only when its too late.
If the man really do care, he can try to be her friend first.
If the woman knows what she wants, she will let the man understand her.
If they truly love each other, things will work out.

If you happen to chance upon my blog, _______, all what candy can say is that
she's sorry if things turned out wrongly, awfully, mistakely imperfectly.

Take Care.
Perhaps, we'll never meet again.
Perhaps.

A clearer view on certain things and ppl
-I seriously wanna post bout my sandwich day, but im wayyyy too lazy to upload the pics in sequence.hohoho.Next time yeah (:

Projs are almost done now, but the problems i'd been pondering in the past overwhelmed me again.
Things just didnt work out well.
Candy's in a dilemma.
She doesn't know what she wants or can she even want smth?
Its smth very very very simple.Understanding.
Words been twisted.
Meanings been altered.
Whatever.

Am glad that lovers and Ching share my problems.
They do understand hw does it feels like and they do know what they ought to do if they were to be part of it.
They stood by me (:
Okays. Its not the freaking time to emo now.

Liquid Kitchen Rocks My World!
Had fun with Ching and buddies yest.
Chilled and played "calling game"
Superman+Ultraman+BeeBeeBompPeeBompPeePee+lalalala+beeeebeeee
HAHAHAHAHHAHAHAH!
Hope we do have more hang out oftenly, it really do help to distress.

Btw, Hui Yuan suggested fishing on next friday.
TBo9, are we interested?!
Candy is! (:
One vote from Candy ((:


P/S: Wonderful Pics will be upload soooon! :))

*Snifffffffffffffffffffffffff*

haaaa...i can finally smell 60% of the fresh air((:
Our grp projs are almost done now(we lack of sleep terribly! 2AM everyday!roarrrrs)
Oh yeah, but Exam's next : /
URGHHHHH.


I really really love TB09 alright((:
The ppl there are awfully nice.

Thanks Jean for the encouragement and console.
Thanks ZaZa for giving me advice.
Thanks Hui Yuan for the explanations.
Thanks Chin Woo for his entertainments.He makes me smile (:
Thanks Eugene for the editing.Eng damn pro la =D

Anyway,
Don't ask me bout anything or anyone.
All i can say is that my conscience is clear.
My attitude might be harsh due to the stress-circumstances yet i don't think im totally at fault for any incidents.
As long as i know that i've put in my effort and have done my best, i take initiative.
Thus, whatever critics there are bout me, its non of my concern.

Oh, lets not bother to talk bout it anymore aft this post, because everything's ending soon and im glad((:

PPL! im gg to try NEW RECIPE!
Its bout CHOCOLATE!
ANTICIPATE yeah!!! (((:



-LOVES-

You may keep your eyes off my blog as

I DO NOT HAVE THE FREAKING TIME TO BLOG.Temporary.


Contribute ppl! Its time to buck up!
Thanks for those who offer great help (:

There're times when your life seems to be gg dwn the slope.
Yet
At certain point of time, it is fulll of brillant color and laughters.


Its just a certain phrase,part,period we need to go through.
and
i just realised that.


I'll be smiling soon.
I'll be.

Oh yeah! went to see oven with mum today.
Lowest price of it is $360.
Im sooooo gg to get an OVEN alright.
Uber saddest thing is that, mum expect me to pay for myself ):
See, im paying it myself and baking for them to eat la!
and...im so gonna take gazamillion years to save up that sum of money...
I've calculated...OVEN+MIXER=$360+$30=$390


Okays, lets start starving myself and save that scrimp of allwance for my OVEN+MIXER.
How i wish i that this 2 thingy will just..
*POOF*
Without having my acct dropped drastically):

Completely DOWN alright.


They said that my dressings are too revealing and skimpy, that's why i projected an "easy-gg" image to others.
And that's one of the reason why i can't find a decent guy in my life.

Honestly, i've never in my life feel 0r even think that im pretty.
Past- Obesity struck my life & ended till i reached 15.
Current- Acne has became my ultimate nemesis and seems like it can never be defeated.

I had this conversation with my mum and sisters:
Mum: when i had saudi, i ate a whole lot of apples.
Saudi: No wonder i so white la.

Me: No wonder im like that, skin's as dry as the desert and as dark as malay(im not racist okay, its just that chinese are suppose to look fair mah!)
Mum:Hmm..when i had you, i ate a whole lot of BREAD.

That explains why -__-'''
Dry and Dull.
THANKS AH MUMMY.

See, ah see, how can i ever feel happy with my appearance this way?
So, when one aint confident bout her looks, external source came in.

Clothings.

Clothes are one of the most amazing thing that girls fall madly with.
Ermm-Humoh..NO, i did not dress revealingly on purpose.
Seriously, i don't.
and i didn't notice till now, that my dressings are revealing.
Okay, so, i shall buy least revealing clothings frm now onwards.
Im heading for shirts! and and...Skinnie jeans alright!


I am utterly upset alright.
Confidence level- Deflated.


Make me happy, would you? ):

proj+proj+proj+AAA+FIT= X__X

Exam is just ard the corner and..
Im a piece of dead meat now. ( okays, a piece of shit yest, today's bout dead meat)

Honestly, my mind is in a whirlwind.
I don't know what im thinking bout or am i even thinking??
Perhaps its better for me to have my mind 100% concentrate on my studies and nth else.
Im just so glad that the past no longer bothers me, if not, im gonna be a BIG mess ball.

I hereby wanna apologise to Jean here,
Im sorry babe that im not able to celebrate your birthday with you, i can understand how you feel, but from my situation, i really have no idea how to make you feel better when im feeling Feeling-less now.
Thanks for you encouragement btw, hopefully, i'll sort out everything soon but currently, i just wanna love my friends (:
Im in S.L.A.T now.
HOHOHOHO.

Oh, i learnt to make dumplings! man, its not that simple alright.
and..post on Sandwich Day will be put up soon! (:

Take care(:
Bless me, would you? <3

Right now, i feel like a piece of shit.

I need someone to lead me, give me direction.
I need someone who understands me.
I need someone who is my friend that can be more than a friend for me.
I need someone there to accompany me through all these mountainous work.
I just need a shoulder to lean on.







Have i found one?

.............................................

Random Thought.
this shall be a random post, igonore if ya annoyed by it.


Is sex an essential element in a relationship?
Is it so true that by having sex, it levels up the r/s?


Tsk, tsk.
This is sucha sensitive topic.
Im not here to criticise yeah.
This is purely personal thoughts and issue.

I just feel that there's no need for sex in my r/s.
If ones truly love each other, their love doesnt need to be shown by that.
Okays, from my past experience(Im still a virgin alright), i realised that some r/s are driven by lust yet some are love.

Alright, so, im the traditional-sex-aft-marriage sort of person.
Im naive? Im not realistic at all?
I beg to differ, even if the society culture has been advancing rapidly, it doesnt mean my thinking, my practices should move along as well.
Thus, doesn't mean ppl nowadaysthink its alright bout premarital sex, i should go along with them as well.

Stories i've heard from friends, its disheartening yet some are truly touched.
But still, im glad that i hold on to my beliefs and grateful that its god's will that make me for what i am today.
Im proud to stay on with this belief.
But i sincerely don't despise anyone who doesnt as i think that this is a very personal issue, we don't judge ppl by that alright.

Hence, i truly hope that my near-future bf will understands that.
Hopefully he holds on to the same belief as i do which it'll be sooo sooo rare -___-'''
Therefore, guess i shall remain single for a very very long time or be a spinster or marry a old ah-pek when im alr an old ah-ma with no more sex drive -_-!

Told you this is a random post liao.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY EIL!!!!!!
YOU ARE OFFICIALLY 19! No longer young yet aint old, ENJOY!! (:


Intended to give eil a surprise celebration but welll...somehow, the plan failed.
BOOOO.
Nvm, we still had fun (:

Btw...we ought to have GRP pics..but YK dint send me & i forgt bout it
Typical us -___-'''


-Frene for 7 years.


-Oh man, we are actually that OLD now.


-LOVE you! <3




P.S.
Mummy, GST has increased by 2%
Raise my allowance by 2%, would you? (:

I am THIS EXTREMELY HAPPY at 10:00PM alright.

((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((:

Shhs, dont ask so much, anticipate my surprises okay <3

Today is a Christine a.k.a Respect Day!


Its just another boring day with a boring lecturer yakking away.
Cant wait for the days to pass by (:
I really do hope that everything will go on smoothly (:
Bless me please Lot61:)

Yesterday, was doing proj with christine and butties then it led to a trival argument bout TRUE FRIEND.
Then, Christine said before she left: if you've got any problem and suggestions, email me and cc to other parties and bcc to blah blah blah.
Thus, in order to respond to her suggestion, we sent her this:


Dear Christine,

We were utterly disheartened to hear your "This then is call true frene..." and we did some reflections on ourselves. Thus we came to this conclusion that WE shall say "I LOVE YOU" to you EVERYDAY to prove our LOVE to you as a true friend.

Btw, you did mentioned we could e-mail you regarding any issue, hence, im(Candy) here to request for a GINGY.

Thank You.
Joanne Ma
Gina Lim
Candy Leong


As taken frm Christine:

We are one individual.

But somehow, you can't live alone, being independently.

In our daily life, you are sure to say:

Please - to ask a favour from someone.
Thank You - to express your gratitude to whom have helped you.


*Hands up! Hands up!*

I AGREE.
Oh..its all bout christine today (:

P.S

THANKS GINA, for your sandwich.
LOVE YOU <3

I hope everything will turn out fine (:
Bless me please.
Candy needs help & encouragement.

-loves-

A Very Long Time Ago


We got lost in tampiness and had to call his friends up and check the road directory, though its tedious but its extremely fun alright (:
Loads of jokes and laughters were created with my 10 yrs of friendship, JL (:
Went to visit Ikea and boy, its like mini orchard road except that all it sells are furnitures.
Their Meatballs are uber nice esp when you enjoy it at their cafe, big glass wall and soothing lightings.

In the end, candy bought nth but a bottle of honey from Giant and JL, he shops like a woman larhs.
HAHAHHAHAHAHA.



-Damn funny can when we tried to find the mega Ikea.


-We are sucha old old friend of each other.






-Slurp:


- Lets go Ikea Together alright (:


-I heart you <3
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-Good,good, nice pose butt.



Gess, guess i'll be having insomia for the nex few days ):
I hope everything will turn out fine ((:
Die Hard4 (:


The one who enjoys the walk as much as i do.

Home Made Potato Salad

As im STUCK at home cus i LOST my right lens -___-, hence, skipped my 9AM lesson and missed my SURPRISE.

Anyway,

im Chef Candy today (:
She did some extremely simple dish but she would really love to share with everyone.
The cost of it is frigging cheap than the one-bowl-cost-$3plus in NP ogays.









-Microwave the Potato for about 25 mins and use a fork/chopstick/smth sharp & long la to poke the potato, it is to test whether its soft and thoroughly cooked.



-If you do not have a microwave, chop the potato into big cubes and boil in water. Sift them when cooked.




-Eh...i don't knw what is this..but somehow..its something that is able to smash food.




-And so you smashed them up




-Use a spoon to make sure that the tiny bits of potato cubes are all smashed up




-Sprinkle some spices to enhance the taste, a pinch of salt is advisable.
-Add in Mayonise and chicken slice to enhance the taste and texture




-Wrap it up with the food wrap and send to e refrigerator




-When potato is fully cold, you may start to garnish it.
-Roll them into ball or simply scoop them into a bowl with fruits & vege.



-Ta da! My potato salad for my butties (:

Caught the 12:30Am slot instead of 11:30Am because SOMEONE asked me out last min when his buddy was not able to make it.
And when he's able to make it, he needs to sit alone, aww..poor Ben.

Nvm.
I still got to watch my Bumble-Bee and enjoy my popcorns (;
And man! That show was Awesome kaes!
Fantastic graphics and effects,comical and sensational storyline, im sure guys will love it oh yeah.
But the only flaw is that you'll find the fightings between the robots abit confusing due to their similar mechanical graphics and shades of color.
And there's not much of interactions btw the couples, well, the focus point is on the robots.
Duh.

The duration of the show's bout 2hrs 45mins.


So, i reached home like say 3:30Am, hopped into my bed at 4Am and had to wake up for work at 9Am.And so, here i am..blogging as i had fitful sleeps :S


Dear you, am i gg to fall in love with you again?
You gave me sleepless nights.
My heart brimmed and eyes flickered the next sec.
I need a specific answer yet i dare not pop out the qn to you.
Im hanging in the mid-air because of you.
Was it a mere act of affection?
Or we do still have feelings for each other.
Im sure i've learnt the way to handle things well now.
I rmb the slippers (:
Die Hard 4? (;

Oh candy, there's some straightening you need to do alright.