I cannot BELEIVE that i actually fell dwn at the BUS STOP again.

Im so pissed can, not by anyone but myself.Its really not the first time alright and i don't knw why it keeps happening on me. Perhaps my Centre of Gravity is too high, can't balance myself well. So, Candy's gt a few mini cuts and aches.

Moreover, guess what, when i was helplessly practically lying on the floor and having difficulties to pull myself up. This uncle walked over and stand by my side, i looked up, thinking what a nice man he is to offer some help.

Ya right.
He blatantly stared at me and start chit-chatting on the phone.
Wah Lao Eh.



Mummy was super angry when she called me at 5:00AM.
Bf and i dozed off while watching DVD at his hse and i failed to wake up. What to do, i only slept like 3hrs the day before.
BUT...
Nth happened between us, like seriously((:
Enjoy his companion btw (((:


Oh ya.
Regarding to the previous entry.
ALL DOUBTS CLEARED ((:




Sensitivity & doubts leads you no where right.
No more fears but loves yeah :)






P.S. simply enjoy the phone calls(:







As the day draw by...
Misses for everyone & everything multiplies.

Dear: My Ex msged me yesterday.

Me(Buffled):Speechless.

Me: Why?

Dear: Don't know. She msged me twice but i didnt reply.

Me: Got her photo?



I Can't Believe He Really Gt Photo of His Ex,
moreover, its not PHOTO but PHOTOS.
More & More & More of it.
(I really hope at this pt of time, he'll have deleted that busload of picturesssssss)

I don't know why he wanna tell me abt this, perhaps its because we'd agree to be trueful to each other, no secrets.
And i really do which i did told him some secret before i gt this SHOCK frm him.

Is this a payback?
I didnt meant to want him to feel jealous,angry,annoyed by telling him my secret, but i've never consider abt his feelings beforehand):
If i chose not to tell him anything, will he had told me abt the msgs & photoS?
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and

YES.

I am SO FULL OF JEALOUSY now, like totally?

but i know,
HE'S JEALOUS of what i told him too)):

So, in conclusion, are we even?
But the main issue here is not about getting even with each other.
But trueful, yet sometimes, we somehw neglect hw the other party feels.


I've never felt such heartache before(Seriously, crossed-fingers, cross my heart)
I told myself, its just a MESSAGE.
ONLY A MESSAGE.
A MERE MESSAGE, nth else.
but....maybe
WITH FEELINGS IN IT?
or...
WITH A MEANING OF GETTING BACK TGT?
what if...
SHE'S COMING BACK?-
when im gone?perfect timing right?

What The Hell.
im leaving S'pore for 6mths???hw wonderful.
See, i've been telling ppl not to mention hw BLISSFUL i am, cus im afraid that such thing will happen upon me, which i alr did -__-'''






OF CUS, i 've gt faith in him.
but, somehow, there's this uncertainy lies within me))=






Well, i'll leave my future on God's hand.
If he's the one, he'll be the one((:





Still, candy is thoroughly beaten, today.

I'll misss you too LEONG HUI CHING!





)))=



Can you ppl PLEASE stop reminding me that I-AM-LEAVING????
I seriously hate to knw it can??Especially when ppl keep counting dwn (k, im one of them) : X



Never did i realized how much i will misss the people here, till today, i made break-fast for my Neighbour cum bestie, LEONG HUI CHING and i suddenly realize that there wont be any chances for me to do that till 6mths later T___T

I always thought that i'll leave without regrets, without missing each individuals.
and yeah, i miss EVERYONE, EVERY SINGLE SOUL (Like alr NOW?) :

-KOH KWEE HOON
-LEONG KWOK HENG
-LYNN LEONG
-SANDY LEONG a.k.a SAUDI-ARABIA
-KENJI LEONG
-KENNY NG
-GAN SWU JUAN
-AUNT GAN
-LEONG HUI CHING
-SERENE HO
-JEAN KONG
-EUNICE TAN
-HANNA
-AUDRIS TAN
-YK TAN
-PREM WEEEEE
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The list just goes on & on & on & on!
Now, im feeling 9647243659287 times regret, WELL-DONE man. A round of applause please.


Can someone Please assure me that everything will be the SAME when im home 6mths later.















Im holding on to your hands, reluctant to let go.
When i gaze into your eyes, its really hard to look away.
Love you boy((=
I fear for the future, for what will happen next...but
I know we can last, thats alllll candy needs <3

OVER-THE-MOON yet SAD

She can't have a proper slp and meal recently....


She feels so ultra-ly loved every single day.
Yet.
Without realizing it, its less than 15days she's leaving ))=
and to be exact, time spend with Kenny's less than 11 days )))))'=


Can i not go for the 6mths attachment overseas?I think i'll flood the bed, food, work, customer with my tears la. It'll be so hard to leave when its like im so used to see Kenny & the rest everyday in S'pore. BUT, Candy can't be selfish right?She needs to do what she's promised to and hw can throw her frenes dwn there????





OKAY.

Im, no i mean WE are gg to survive for the next 6 mths.

I really really really hope EVERYTHING will remain as it was now when im back((((:
So do you yeah : )

Happy Belated V.Day ((:



As a matter of fact, i've never show any concern abt V.Day. Well, obviously its because that Candy has nvr gotten any present frm the past V.Days, so, why shld she be bothered about it.


Oh well, its like, when im in Primary Sch, i was THIS BIG SIZE than the guys, no one falls for me

at all. And when im in Secondary Sch, guess im way tooo bitchy But this year, its an extremely totally different kind of day for me.



its a Shock+Stun+Wonderful+Beautiful+Buffled+a tinge of sadness Valentine's Day.



I never know that others will fall for me.
Seriously.
I prayed to god every night for a better me, cus, i've never seen myself as a very nice girl.
I was like so un-popular among the boys in pri & Sec times, im bitchy wad, who cares.hahahah.
So, Thanks for Everything boy, Friend lasts forever than anything yeah: ))



I thought i wouldn't be able to fall in love, as i thought my heart's completely dead eversince the last break-up.
As when i decided to step my feet on a foreign ground, he came into my life. Its hw unpredictable life and love is, the cupid just hit right on me. Its a feeling and securities that i've never experience before. And, coincidentally, he is just the kind of my dream guy (:
*Hearts*
It'll last forever, we both believe (( :



HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY!!!!!




p.s Pictures will be uploaded soooon ((:

It hurts to be in love, really, and i witnessed it yesterday.

A scene with...
Heartwrenching words.
Cruel acts.
Ignorance.
Rejection.
and eventually, a flood of tears.


What if i were to encounter all these again? What if the next one is the same as that I-am-so-freaking-over-him jeremy? What if i had to flood my pillow,milo & toilet roll with a pool of tears in China every single day? What if i can't manage it well like the one i had?

and the what-ifs go on...

But first of all, the what-ifs will not occur when 2 are not tgt.
So, its just my foolish hope and fears.


I am a bloody bitch, i'll admit that without anyone telling me yet.
Honestly, the feelings faded without us knowing it, so, whats the point of holding on?
It's already arised before someone else stepped in.
Yet, the guilt is there, it will stays forever i guess.

I've never been showered with so much attention and care before.
He has done more than what a friend shld do.
He has done more than a boyfriend shld actually do.
He has done so much more than what you did.
and he seems to be the one instead of you.

We could talk about everything under the sun till wee hours.
-What we talk abt was: Hello. Im tired. gg bed. Goodnight. Bye. and finally an "I miss you".

We would hang out ard to explore and make discovery and had tons of fun&food.
-Without fail, i will always find myself sitting on the same chair, in the same cinema at the same mall, watching a different movies.

We share the same religion, faith.
-You told me that you don't believe in anything.

Lastly, We speak the same.

Ok.
I know im making comparison btw 2 fantastic, yet, its the fact that i've been trying to deny.
I feel like a total slut,bitch and wadever whore.
I shouldn't be making all these whinnings & comments, i shld stay faithful, contented, honest & in-love.
But the thing is that, Im not ):

AT ALL.


And screwed.
It is actually happening while V.day is drawing near, but, seriously, i've never celebrated V.day before,so, there's no difference right?

I hope everything will end even if no one comes into us.
Its just a matter of time.
But, can you be the one who initiates it?
I don't think i've gt the right to...
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Im sorry for all the empty promises i made.
Im sorry for all the empty efforts.
Im sorry for not doing anything.
Im sorry for being sorry.



She wants to be loved and yet not hurt.Its never possible & thus, single might be a better choice?























P.S. i thought the horoscope was freaking accurate but now, it doesnt seems to be :X *cross-fingers*


P.S/P.S. Honey, it's gg to be alright. We will stand strong beside you, everthing will folds smoothly. Love you girl (:


P.S./P.S. Jean where are you????!!!


i like him(((:

I NEVER LOVE EXAM.
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Im still nt prepared for CMA & BLAW.
Sigh )):

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!!!


新年快樂!!!



Though C.N.Y is getting boring as the year past by, yet, we will never get bored with all those ANG BAOS right (;

and of cus,


Not to forgt about the relatives we get to meet only once a year(:

In my previous blog, i mentioned LAST YEAR abt this fiendish lil devil boy i met at Ah Gong's hse. Shan't digress on it la, just that as usual, we met again THIS YEAR. My sister and i were like:


Saudi Arabia: Eh...look at the boys playing.

Me: Hmmmmm...yah.You don't remember LAST YEAR meh?

*Starring at each other*





Me: Please ah, i don wanna get near to him liao.



-He pulled my hair, screamed ard, ran abt etc....


-Through him, i see my young brother as a lil angle-__-
and he's once again being blogged : X









Im sorry.
I really don't know what i've done and what i should do.
Sigh ):

Half-done IS.



Had our I&E (One of the "tooooot" module) event last Sat, like FINALLY its OVER.Well, the crowd is not big but at least we self-entertained ourselves.Duh.

Oh, why did i say IS is half-done? It's because 3 of us had not yet go through the final interview and our dear teacher couldn't grade us AND supposingly, we were to meet her this MONDAY MORNING, guess what, we went to sch just for the sake of meeting her and what we got was a PIECE OF PAPER: To XXX student, XXX is on half-day leave.

-____-''


Pissed.






-thats wad we're capable of (:


-Raped.




-Thanks ZAZA (Right)for alllll the grp reports
-You may ignore the LEFT.


-You'll find me in this 30yrs later...





Been having late night supper...urgh.
I can evidently see, feel & smell the growning FATS within me!!!!
RARRRRRRR.

But still, thanks for the feeding.hahahhahaa.
and, kuku SAUDI ARABIA a.k.a my sister (I knw you've been reading hor). Stop mocking k, as if you don have ur MR C ard.
Btw, we are friend only la.


(((:


P.S. Thanks Eugene for the Milk Booster. Boost my boobs, hahahahah. i'll return you the favour for sure : )

Aww, jean understands me right?hurhur.