It hurts to be in love, really, and i witnessed it yesterday.

A scene with...
Heartwrenching words.
Cruel acts.
Ignorance.
Rejection.
and eventually, a flood of tears.


What if i were to encounter all these again? What if the next one is the same as that I-am-so-freaking-over-him jeremy? What if i had to flood my pillow,milo & toilet roll with a pool of tears in China every single day? What if i can't manage it well like the one i had?

and the what-ifs go on...

But first of all, the what-ifs will not occur when 2 are not tgt.
So, its just my foolish hope and fears.


I am a bloody bitch, i'll admit that without anyone telling me yet.
Honestly, the feelings faded without us knowing it, so, whats the point of holding on?
It's already arised before someone else stepped in.
Yet, the guilt is there, it will stays forever i guess.

I've never been showered with so much attention and care before.
He has done more than what a friend shld do.
He has done more than a boyfriend shld actually do.
He has done so much more than what you did.
and he seems to be the one instead of you.

We could talk about everything under the sun till wee hours.
-What we talk abt was: Hello. Im tired. gg bed. Goodnight. Bye. and finally an "I miss you".

We would hang out ard to explore and make discovery and had tons of fun&food.
-Without fail, i will always find myself sitting on the same chair, in the same cinema at the same mall, watching a different movies.

We share the same religion, faith.
-You told me that you don't believe in anything.

Lastly, We speak the same.

Ok.
I know im making comparison btw 2 fantastic, yet, its the fact that i've been trying to deny.
I feel like a total slut,bitch and wadever whore.
I shouldn't be making all these whinnings & comments, i shld stay faithful, contented, honest & in-love.
But the thing is that, Im not ):

AT ALL.


And screwed.
It is actually happening while V.day is drawing near, but, seriously, i've never celebrated V.day before,so, there's no difference right?

I hope everything will end even if no one comes into us.
Its just a matter of time.
But, can you be the one who initiates it?
I don't think i've gt the right to...
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Im sorry for all the empty promises i made.
Im sorry for all the empty efforts.
Im sorry for not doing anything.
Im sorry for being sorry.



She wants to be loved and yet not hurt.Its never possible & thus, single might be a better choice?























P.S. i thought the horoscope was freaking accurate but now, it doesnt seems to be :X *cross-fingers*


P.S/P.S. Honey, it's gg to be alright. We will stand strong beside you, everthing will folds smoothly. Love you girl (:


P.S./P.S. Jean where are you????!!!


i like him(((: